For these next two weeks till my wedding day, I've decided to do a journel entry for each day left on my blog. A lot of people have been asking me how I've been "holding" up, so hopefully this will help answer that question. I've had a ton of people asking me and I'm so grateful that they are checking up on me. I just don't know how to answer them without giving a long lengthy boring answer. So that's why I'm doing this. Hopefully it'll be a bit more interesting. Plus, I've always wondered what the bride is thinking during those last few weeks of singlehood. Now you'll know mines!
13 Days Left
In all honesty, I'm not nervous or worried about the wedding at all. I've gotten to the point where I've done whatever I could do to be prepared for the wedding day. The part I am nervous about is what is to come after the wedding day...reality. There's so many unknowns after these two weeks pass. Moving to a different city that I've never lived before, finding a job, maybe even going back to school, not relying on mom/dad for financial needs, moving away from all my family, making new friends, figuring out where we're going to live, and starting a new family. I think the biggest stress factor for me is getting a job or figuring out what I'm planning to do (go back to school or not). There's so many things I want to do...but they're not always a steady paid job. After planning my wedding and doing this blog, I've fallen in LOVE with the world of wedding design and blogging. I wish I could make a living out of this, but I don't think I can make a steady income out of it. We'll see where life goes...
As of now, I'm enjoying the days of singlehood and spending time with friends/family. This year has been a real blessing with having a part time job that I absolutely loved and doing planning on the side. I wish I could do it again, but life always changes. I always feel like whenever I get comfortable with where I am at life, that's when I see the road of change coming up. That's where I'm at right now....about to turn to the streets of the unknown. Even though there are a million things I can worry about...I'm just taking one day at a time. If I worry now, I'll be missing out on so many things in the present.
New International Version (NIV)
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.